I can’t be sure I did something properly and I need the checking rituals to ease the anxiety that something bad might happen as a result.
At its worst, my OCD made me fear and doubt all my actions, the consequences becoming my obsessions. I had checking rituals and avoided places due to contamination fears. I found ‘The Doubting Disease’ an adequate description for my type of OCD. I feel like a different person now after treatment (including ERP [Exposure and Response Prevention]) and want to encourage anyone who suffers with OCD that help is available.
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