I must obey otherwise the devil will punish me
For a long time I thought I was weird, but then I discovered that I had OCD. I always assumed OCD was when you obsessively clean all the time, but I was completely wrong. However this shows how the awareness and understanding of OCD is so small. Throughout the years, realising I’ve had OCD from the age of around 12 and to now where I am 17, I have definitely been through a lot!
I was sent to a psychiatric hospital for 5 months which was a big challenge and I had to make a lot of sacrifices and do a lot of exposures. I am now on the road to recovery, my medication, my recovery programme and my support system/family has all been sorted out properly.
From my parents not even knowing I was struggling, to now getting involved in my recovery, is a big and scary but important change. I still really struggle, almost feeling like I did before I went into hospital, but thinking about it, I took a lot of steps and we have to notice the little improvements as it’s the little improvements that build up to big improvements!
“A ship is safe in harbour, but that is not what ships are built for.”
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