The riverbed will collapse, it’ll flood all the Tube trains and I’ll die.
I can remember OCD behaviour from when I was 12/13… I hardly slept. I used to barricade my bedroom door to keep myself safe… no one knew. I couldn’t sleep until I fell asleep through exhaustion.
Over the years, OCD has manifested itself with me in various ways: checking, mind games, intrusive thoughts. It has made me late, ill, tired, and afraid. I had CBT last year which helped, for the first time in my life. I need a top-up I feel now… it hasn’t gone away… it’s so deep-rooted… I don’t know if it ever will, but I am working on lessening it and am happy to have found online groups, which makes me feel less alone.
Recently, after a lifetime of being ‘obese’, I have lost 5.5 stone in weight and am a healthy weight for the first time in my life. I feel like this could help me improve with other things too, like how I tackle living with OCD… now I know I CAN do something! Easier said…!
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