I plan conversations and actions and play them over and over until I can complete them in real life – it consumes me

The thing that haunts me about my OCD tendencies is the all consuming nature of them – if I plan to do something I will repeat the plan to myself over and over in my head until I can complete it, I can think of nothing else until it’s done in case I forget a step and something awful happens.

I wish I could accept that it’s ok to plan and do something in the moment, and not carry it around all day for no reason – it’s not helping me at all!