A devil who never sleeps pulls pins out of grenades in my mind. It’s my job to put them back in before it’s too late.
I lived with OCD undiagnosed for over 25 years. Misdiagnosed with clinical depression, pumped full of pharmaceuticals that didn’t make a dent in the problem but had a variety of other bad effects.
I eventually ditched all of that and decided to go it alone. About 10 years of hell ensued before I stumbled on a video about Pure O and suddenly I had a name for my weirdness.
Now I fight a government who refuses to recognise OCD is real, and recruitment consultants who refuse to put me forward for job interviews because I have OCD. I have become a non-entity. Persona non grata. My attempts at CBT have been ground into dust between these two opposing forces. As such, I have been forced to return to the way of life I know best: spotting hand grenades, and putting the pins back in, before it’s too late.
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The Secret Illness 
Thank you for your kind words Gemma.
Sorry for the late reply – there was a mix-up with my original.
I admire your telling it how it is and going it alone.
I enjoyed reading your blog. Your courage and tenacity undertaking challenging exposures is impressive.
“Long live the fighters!”
David.
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My pleasure, David. I have just replied to the last comment you left on my blog: Sorry for the delay! I am not online that much. Good luck with your journey and yes, “Long live the fighters!” š Gemma
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Oh good – I’m glad you got that as I was paranoid I’d not hit reply(you know how it is with the “wait a minute, did I just …?”. I will go and check the blog out too now.
David.
p.s. that quote is from the film Dune!
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Oh, YEESSS; I know how it is! I love the quote! Have a good Sunday! Gemma
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Hi David, I am so sorry that you’re OCD’s been met with such blind ignorance and misunderstanding. I, too, as an OCD sufferer for 10 years have encountered similar – and like you, are now ‘going it alone’ in my bid to get it under control. You can read about how I’m doing so on my blog: http://breakingfreefromchronicocd.blogspot.co.uk/ I don’t take any medication and don’t have a therapist. Good luck with your battle and I hope you find a way through it. All the best, Gemma
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