I can’t get out of the shower yet, what if I have AIDS on my body?

Living with my obsessive compulsive disorder is one of the most challenging things I have ever experienced. Day by day, hour by hour and minute by minute intrusive thoughts are trapping me into believing that the world is contaminated. I know this isn’t the case but I just can’t stop thinking it.

I guess I have had intrusive thoughts since I was about 8, worrying about electricity  and contamination but it’s only become so controlling over the past couple years. Two hour showers, constant hand washing, extreme concern for anything that looks like blood.

I just want my mind back to myself. I want some quiet time. Hopefully one day we can all defeat this bully.

For anyone who is struggling I wish you a speedy recovery.